yup..dats me..!

I am sleepy but eyes closed remind of people I am not/cant be with.
I am hungry but cant eat.
I want to read a book but i chose to continue with this.
I want to listen to a song but cant decide which song ‘this’ present state of my mind can be releted to.
I am thirsty but the scotch is finished.
I want love but that is one thing everyone else already has and sharing is not the order of the day.
I want to see the stars but these city lights don’t let me.
I want to stop and stare but nothing is permanent.
I don’t want my butt to be kicked twice but then too, I think I am getting there. Pray I don’t.
I want to see my dad again but I am not time.
I want you to feel comfortable but is it going to be vice-versa?
I want to watch television but two-hundred different options don’t let me stick to one.
I want to take ‘her’ out on a date but where is ‘she’.
I want life to go smoothly but it loves speed-breakers.
I want to hit the gym again but every time its ‘Monday se’ phenomenon.
I want to apologize but then they too owe me one.
I don’t want to see the sun ever again but I am not God.
I want to leave out all the rest but then I would’ve no company.
I don’t want to ever lie again but this world leaves me with no other option.
I want to dance and I suppose that’s the only thing I can do right now.
I want them around but they are never there.
I want life to go easy but then I don’t write its script.
I want to rise above all this but the more I try the deeper I drown.
I want to kick his butt but my legs cant reach there..yet.
I thought life sucks but then I know people who suck even more.
I want to get out of trouble easily but I don’t know the magic word.
I want to erase some period of my life but they have been carved.
I want to be easy on you but then what if you become selfish.
I want to wipe out the human race but then what would politicians do?
I want to be a part of India’s growth story but then would a mere blog like this take me anywhere?
I never wanted you to walk away on me but you still did.
I want to heal the world but how?
I want my life to take it easy but our thoughts never matched.
I want to chuck non-veg food (chicken) but the chicks are so irresistible.
I want a vacation every month but that’s not possible, practically & financially.
I want to write a meaningful blog but here I am writing this.
I want to decode loneliness sometimes but I was always bad at maths.
I want you to listen to me but you always have some train, flight or bus to catch.
I ask them not be materialistic but they say what do I do with the money then?
I am in 'like' wid myself but...

..life..an elevator..

Its not everyday that I go thru something and then go on to write about it. Just the other day, I went to watch the last Indie Jones blockbuster. Its good but only considering that it was “the Indiana Jones” franchisee..but I’d still opine that ‘Raiders of the Lost Ark’ was the best ever..! Anywz, it so happened that the movie ended and we were coming down from the 5th floor located Adlabs. We took the easy & convenient ‘ELEVATOR’. The first phase was from the 5th floor to the 4th floor-this floor had all kinds of showrooms i.e., Planet M, Bata, Apple store, etc. As we had no interest in any of them, we took the second phase of the ‘Elevator’ from the 4th floor to the 3rd floor. This floor had all kind food joints, right from Punjab to Chennai, barring a few states in between but I don’t think it deterred the overtly enthusiastic public to not to enjoy what they were there for. It was humming with people on a Sunday. We (11 of us..yes!) looked at each other and without uttering a single word understood that no one was in a mood to eat anything but I guess it was the sheer sight of people having food in bundles & also the sign-board saying ‘self-service’ that deterred us to go to the 3rd floor located Food court; which brought us to our third phase of taking the ‘Elevator’ (..did I mention it as easy & convenient?) from the 3rd floor to the 2nd floor. This floor was interesting, it housed the legendry Big-Bazaar. Now ders a reason behind calling it legendry. Big-Bazaar is so so so huge and yet its located like just any other mom & pop store; I don’t think any Indian is not aware of Big-Bazaar. This is actually a tremendous phenomenon. Big-Bazaar literally is like its name-BIG..and thats precisely the reason why I don’t like it! I hate to be a part of chaos inside Big-Bazaar that people take for granted and throng it like its Armageddon outside and Big-Bazaar is the only shelter that mankind has on any given day of the year..! Anywz..der we were, on the 2nd floor and Big-Bazaar is not ‘the place’ to go on a Sunday (or any other day) so we took the ever easy & convenient ‘Elevator’ from the 2nd floor to the 1st floor. This floor also had Big-Bazaar (I told u its BIG). People were buying vegetables on a Sunday from a Big-Bazaar located in a up market mall; I don’t know whether its a phenomenon restricted only to Gujarat or common across the country. Anywz, widout saying a word to each other, we took the ‘Elevator’ again to come to our final destination-The ground floor. I know that I am exaggerating my simple multiplex trip into some kind of a ‘Sanjay Leela Bhansali’ experience, but my sort-of justification lies in the first sentence of this blog..! That day, I actually saw the world exactly the way I’ve described here. I guess I saw it thru a child’s eyes..it did make things around me easier. Try to see it this way and give attention to the minutest of details and that, I guess can only happen if our vehicle is hassle-free. I saw it from a very non-complex point of view, saw each detail minutely just standing on that ‘Elevator’ and this last ‘Elevator’ ride made me think…
“What if our life was as easy & convenient as this Elevator?”

..i m..

..i m..
1) going thru a very boring..totally useless..non-profitable day

2) ..so proud of myslf today..i completed '3 mistakes of my Life' by Chetan Bhagat..in a day flat.. (a first for me..finishing an entire book in a day) PS:its better dan his second book but '5.sum1' still reigns.

3) having a realistically severe pain in my jaw..courtesy of a 'friendly' fight

4) goin thru a confusion of what title shud i give to this blog..

5) reading blogs by Amitabh Bachchan..too good.. (wont give a link here..dat'll kill my blog)

6) drinking d last sip of water left in the bottle near me..now searching for sum1 to fill it..

7) sum1 who never gets angry easily..sacchi

8) not a teetotaler

9) my mamma's good boy :) see even my smile is so innocent :)

10) finding this blog quite difficult to write..but i know i can still go on n on n on

11) planning to buy my brother an electric guitar..he has his own compositions

12) a big fan of google..my walkman fone..budweiser..

13) mentioning my gf (ex) on no.13..dats her birthdate in one of d months

14) asking for time-out..goin for d nature's call..brb....
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15) am back..

16) not able to decide whether to abuse some1 here or not..

17) planning to go to Bombay (dont know y but B'bay is alwz on d list..even if its jst yesterday i ws der) & Panchmarhi in d near future..

18) still waitin for sum1 to bring in water for me..m so lazy sumtimes..

19) planning to catch up wid atlst 3 movies dis weekend..all on DVDs at home..no multiplex dis weekend..

20) not at all in luv wid summer..i hate it..i like winters but..

21) gazing @ d calender n trying to count d no. of days to my birthday (Sep 9..pun intended;)

22) ..about to reach my age

23) predicting..its goin to be ManU 2 vs Chelsea 1 at d UEFA cup final @ Moscow

24) predicting..either Mumbai Indians or Punjab Kings is going to win d IPL'08

25) predicting..i'll easily reach 50 here

26) ..so happy..i jst had an hat-trick of predictions

27) ..trying to figure out..y did i not use any emoticons or colors or diff fonts till now..

28) ..wondering..will my ex ever be able to c me again..

29) ..n vice-versa..

30) some1 who changes my ringtone quite often.. (is it supposed to mean anything..in any philosophical way..? )

31) ..sum1 who can change topics very very easily..n deliberately try to make it sound as if its some kinda achievement..

33) thankful to God

34) listening to no music right now..which reminds me to turn on sum..

35) ..listening to Carnival of Lust..now..

36) ..its a perfect square

37) ..sumtimes so upset wid my mom..she makes me eat 'bottle gourd' aka 'long melon' (lauki)..chill..my vocab is not dat powerful..i had to google it..

37) ..d vegetable mentioned above is d only thing i hate to eat oder dan ofcors d literally evergreen 'karela' (bitter gourd) ..even google knows its bitter..!!!!

38) ..c..even d names of d two i dont like..match

39) a big follower of one principle in life - 'never expect'

40) ..from vegetable bashing to philosophy..changed track again. I told u m good at it.

41) ..really thankful to sum1 here who got me a glass of water..finally..!!

42) ..very close to most of my friends..

43) ..really greatfulful (tho i shud not b..dey r friends after all) dat dey all wer wid me..by me..during my dad's bad health..

44) ..missin my dad now..he was so full of life all d time..even during his last days..i so so so so much miss him..

45) ..not crying right now.

46) ..jst wondering..dat not even a single text or a call has knocked my fone's door..since i started writing dis blog..

47) ..msgs sent from my current fone till now:20000. (make dat 20000 each, atlst from my previous 2 fones)

48) ..also about to reach 50 here

49) ..God knows wat to write..o chuck it..let me reach der..cant wait..

50) NOW DIS IS AN ACHIEVEMENT..!!!

51) ..nw listening to Javeda Zindagi from Anwar..a luvly song..

52) ..tryin to figure out whether dis blog makes any sense;Wat do i write on..to make it reach 75

53) ..thinkin bout my ex again..God knows y..53 has nothing to do wid her!

54) ..still wondering..After a 7 year r'ship..n..a good 6 mnths after we parted ways..Wat went wrong..??

55) ..but happy now..or rather much happier..

56) ..ah..finally a text..its from a friend asking 'any movie tonite?' ..n guess wat i replied..'no movie tonite my friend..m on DVD dose dis weekend..'

57) ..planning to catch up Forrest Gump(again..), Dil Chahta Hai(again..) & Gladiator(again..) for sure..probably will catch up a few more..

58) ..quite satisfied wid d way life is moving right nw..altho sum things are goin awfully bad n sum not-dat-bad..but i guess, i've learnt to b happy from small things/incidents in life, n let me tel u..it does help me in livin life wid a smile.

59) ..finding it interesting dat my extended family wants me to settle down (definition:marry)..

60) ..atlst glad dey consider me dat res-pon-si-ble.. ;) ..

61) ..planning to let dem shout for the same argument for atlst next 4 yrs or may be..even more ;)

62) ..also equally glad d way India is growing..it really makes me so proud being an Indian.

63) ..nw listening to Apologize by Timbaland..o i luv it..!

64) ..missing so many people right now..suddenly. Or may b..m deliberately trying to miss all of dem..all of a sudden...ummm may b its actually d former.

65) ..req for time pls..'ve to attend a call.. (ofcors it counts)

67) ..really pissed off on des Insurance-selling-on-fone guys!

68) ..goin thru India Today magazine right now..d cover story is on Dmitry Medvedev. Go figure.

69) ..o i luv dis number.

71) ..planning to end it here. Quite abruptly.

72) ..thought of giving away a parting smile :)

..oh..my aglet is broken..Voila..its 'Breaking news'..!!!

Ideally, d prologue (if der wud've been any) of dis blog should've been written by d editors of news channels. Everything we watch/happens anywhere becums a 'Breaking News'..take a look at d screenshot below (n've a good laugh)..n well dats just 1 of 7415 'Breaking News' happening everyday.

To be honest, i've started lookin forward to such news n fortunately for which i dont've to wait. Everytime i start my TV, der is sum or d other 'Breaking News' happening. Whether its 250 people dying in a bomb-blast in Mumbai or Sachin Tendulkar landing in Mumbai. Its all treated with the same enthusiasm & emotion..no wonder dealing with 17 'Breaking News' in a day's work makes any news reader act this way..!!!

Now if we look at it from another angle..its a funny break from the usual entertainment channels. I actually've started flippin across news channels in the hope of getting to watch 'some' 'Breaking News' and am not disappointed 9 out of 11 times. Suddenly GEC (General Entertainment Channels) have competition from News channels...n in plenty. And when news channels are not airing 'Breaking News' stories..dis is d kind of stuff they show (d screenshot below).. Dey dint get to interview d players, doesnt matter.. "माँ तो है ना"..

..n d best part is that all d news channels have different 'Breaking News' to share with the world..now that is truly an achievement. Have a look at this CNN 'Breaking News' (truly the 'baap' of all 'Breaking News')

CNN broke its own record of breaking 'Breaking News'. I dont think that record would last too long..our own India TV, Star news, Aaj Tak,etc are catching up..n am proud to say so..!!! This 'Breaking News' phenomenon is actually the world over..

Just d other day,d screenshot read : 'ब्रेकिंग न्यूज़ - अमिताभ बच्चन को ठंड लगी '.. n m not bluffing.
So whether its a celebrity complaining of not having sugar in his/her tea or a eunuch clapping hands..all this is 'Breaking News' material..so pls take it all seriously (at ur own will)..n

till the next 'Breaking News' cracks..or well..breaks.. "have nothing to say" (might break ;)

..Bharat Ratna..anyone..???

First things first. Wikipedia meaning of Bharat Ratna - the word translates to Jewel of India & is India's highest civilian award, awarded for the highest degrees of national service. This service includes artistic, literary, and scientific achievements, as well as "recognition of public service of the highest order.

..all this was started by Mr.Lal Krishna Advani. He suggested..or rather demanded for a Bharat Ratna for his Atal Bihari Vajpayee. n den came a long tail of contenders:
1) Mayawati for Kashiram {der was only Dr.Ambedkar}
2) RamVilas Paswan for God knows who all {who gives even a damn?}
3) Navin Patnaik for Biju Patnaik {who..?}
4) Congress for Jyoti Basu - a leftist {can u imagine..???}
5) Ajit Wadekar for Sachin Tendulkar {ya..ya..not even Sachin}

..as of now these are d 5 contenders for Bharat Ratna. Now read d Wikipedia meaning of Bharat Ratna n decide for urself dat who among d above 5 'actually' deserves a Bharat Ratna. to me, NONE. n its bcos of these controversies dat d Bharat Ratna has not been awarded since d last 7 yrs.
the Bharat Ratna is actually an imitation of what d British call d 'Knighthood'..n in d British history too, its been in existence since d medieval times. The British left India long back but we still follow 'some' of their footprints.
The 'good' thing (if der is any..dat is) with the british 'Knighthood' is dat, dat any person gettin d knighthood is allowed to use the term 'Sir' to his name. But what in India? To me d Bharat Ratna awardees are forgotten so quickly..ask urself how many Bharat Ratna awardees do YOU actually remember out of d total 40 individuals who wer awarded. kyon..ho gayii na googly??
The process (i am sure der is one) for awarding someone d Bharat Ratna..is it made public ever,even in dis democracy?? Even d Right to Information act doesnt work here. Sometimes i feel, d SMS polling system on various television channels is better..atleast its a bit transparent (well..dat too until Rakhi Sawant lost..er..or rather win ;)
If one looks at the Bharat Ratna awardees (google it), u'll find dat some of dem actually deserved it. Only 10 politicians 've received it till dat out of d total 40. n dese 10 politicians too were in d likes of Dr.Ambedkar, Dr.Rajendra Prasad, Lal Bahadul Shashtri, Sardar Vallabhai Patel, etc. If d Bharat Ratna is to be awarded to a politician den give it to sum1 who has done sumthing above what politics (a politician's job description) allows him to do. I dont think any1 can have a problem wid these names. Now compare dem wid the list i wrote above. dis debate makes sense..right??
This NDTV 'Indian of the Year 2007' was rightly given to THE INDIAN SOLDIER. So easy to say, yes, dey only deserve it but how many of us actually talk about d Indian soldiers, in our daily chats, gupshup, etc. HE is d reason we are safe n secure..n not dese friggin' power-hungry politicians.
so decide for urself who 'actually' deserves d Bharat Ratna or do we once n for all scrap it to put an end to all d mud-slinging.

PS: Happy New Year for d year Two thousand & eight ;)

..happy new year for d year two thousand & eight..

..a gujju friend just greeted me.."Happy new year", n i was like..wats new..its already been 10 days since the year two thousand & eight started, but she still insisted.."but still, since v are talking for d first time in d year two thousand & eight, i've to greet you", so for d second time i had to greet her back, much to her delight..!!!
..n let me tel u, dis is the case/going to b d case even 3 months down d year two thousand & eight. Sum gujju friends of mine'll still greet me wid "Happy new Year" even in March of d year two thousand & eight. i can be so confident of Gujjus cos' of my experience & observation. Obviously, no offence to any Gujju..dey r really dependable n cute (again experience & observation)..n since i've been living in Gujjuland for the past 19 yrs, i m all wid Gujjus..i just luv d place n ofcors d people. BTW,i m from Rajasthan.
Now talking bout d year two thousand & eight..it started on quite a low note wid nothing equal to 'breaking-news' happening around..except ofcors on d night of 31st Dec'07. This is wat happened: 3 of my friends r gettin married in January of d year two thousand & eight (so dis ws literally their last NY bash), Sum friends came visiting from Uncle Sam's land after 3 yrs & d most important reason-we were all together. We came, enjoyed & 'drank' (altho m n occasional drinker;n ya dis very well was n occasion). ..i guess i gulped too much for myself which all practically came out @ 2:00 am on the 1st Jan of d year two thousand & eight..n between all dis, in no consciousness, i banged my face wid to a wall while simply waking, breaking my Hilfiger glasses..making it literally my first breaking news of d year two thousand & eight.
10 days've gone by in d year two thousand & eight n am still in shock! anywz..as dey (i really dont know who) say, New Year..New Light..New hope. i've decided to agree wid dem (again, i really dont know who). 2007, for me was a year of job changes, a break-up & a fantastic Goa trip..among other less important events, not worth mentioning.
D year two thousand & eight, i hope / wish / suppose will be a more eventful year but not on d lines of d above mentioned events. I'll stick to my present job if d company keeps me happy by paying good (i hope my boss reads dis ;) , as m singal right nw..break-up thing is out of question, more blogs (dis is my debut) n ya..d Goa trip..ANYTIME..!!! Also, have decided to be quite smart wid my finances in d year two thousand & eight..my only challenge / promise to myself.

..so to evry1 who is reading dis irrespective, in which ever month of d year two thousand & eight.. HAPPY NEW YEAR..!!!!